Attachment for the last 2 weeks wasn't as meaningful as it was before.

There was this boy, Bryant, whom from the very start of my attachment to the centre has caught my eye. He's really adorable and has really fat cheeks that makes me feel like pinching them. But that aside, I found that there is something special about him. And the problem lies there - I don't know what it is.

He's got this really blur look on his face which always make me smile. And when I do, he would look at me and say, 'what?' in his blur-like-sotong-and-not-happy look. Which make me smile even more and I would say, 'nothing, bryant' and inside my heart I would say, 'You made my day, Bryant. Thank you.'

Unlike his other friends, he's quite an introvert and rather soft spoken. I somehow felt that I connection with him even without communicating with him. How you'd ask?

Well, through observing. I observe every thing he does. From writing, playing, eating etc...

And he has this fascination towards dinosaurs. He can talk anything about dinosaurs. And i love listening to him talk which is quite a rare sight. Even though he doesn't speak much, surprisingly, he is quite eloquent.

Bryant's not with the centre anymore. I heard his parents took him out of school and got his grandmother to look after him. What a pity, if not I would have got to know him more and find out that something special about him and also to listen to his wonderful stories of dinosaurs.

Hey guys,

Holidays are finally here! I can finally have some intimate session with my ehm... roooom... What were you thinking? Anyway, if you really know what I mean.. And no, I'm not weird!

Okay, where was I, oh yeah, holidays! Yaye! I had Sims 3 session for a whole 3 hours, something which I havent done for quite some time. I thought of writing down my plans for this erm.. 2 weeks break? But come to think of it, all I 've ever planned for my holidays is to just stay at home and start Sims 3-ing. So, why bother to write them down when I can have all of it my head?

And just like my other coursemates, we have that much-hated thing called assignments which all of us have to complete. But I'm giving myself a break (from assignments) after sleeping, eating, breathing and shitting assignments for the past 1 month. It has been a hell of a month - meeting datelines, meeting up for group projects, individual assignments, lesson planning, supervision. Craaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzyy!!

Thanks to my parents, I'm getting a much-deserved trip to Langkawi, Malaysia - the land of the brown eagle. I'm looking forward to it although we'll only be there for 4 days. And unfortunately, disappointed as an avid and wild fan would be, I'm gonna miss Singapore Idol. I'm gonna miss the one who'd be crowned the next Singapore Idol. Oh well. There's this thing called the net. :D

If you'd have noticed (I know Erma did), I added a new song on my site. Yep, it's awesome AJ Rafael and the awe-inspiring Kina Grannis singing Two is better than one by Boys like Girls featuring Taylor Swift.

When I first heard this song which was sang by Taylor (Lautner, ok random) Swift and Boys like Girls, it didnt really struck me. And I even thought this song was quite boring and meaningless. However, when I heard it sang by *insert angelic voices* Kina Grannis and AJ Rafael sang this, I just stood there for a few seconds. Listening to AJ's soulful voice and Kina's powerful vocals.

It's funny; weeks ago when I heard Taylor and the BLG's rendition of this song, the song wasnt't at all inspiring, mundane, I say. Probably it was Taylor who sang it? I'm not really a big fan of hers anyway. And I dont think she did a great job in singing that song.

But wow, AJ and Kina really gave meaning to that song. I can really relate to it. And it made me tear a little. Thumbs up for AJ and Kina for a job well done.

AJ Rafael's youtube
Kina Grannis's youtube

The very last day I see my boyfriend. :(




Please leave me, I'm having some emotional moments with my new-found-but-due-to-certain-circumstances-we-have-break-up boyfriend.

I think I owe an apology to some of the people in my life whom I have hurt - my parents, my siblings and most importantly my friends.

Yes, I have finally come to realize what a pain in the ass I have been. I have made people's life miserable. I have caused them enough trouble. I feel as though I've been a burden to them. I have made them angry. I was rude to them. I have been selfish. I have been stubborn. And the worst of all, I have hurt them. Terribly.

I'm trying my best to change for the people I love. I'm trying my best to be a better person. And I'm definitely trying my best to appreciate the things that they have done for me and what great people they have been. I just overlooked it.

I feel like a Big Fat Meanie. I feel like I'm THE evil witch.

To all my loved ones, I'm really sorry for all the bad things I've done. I've been a jerk, I know. And I'm trying my best to change, I hope you guys would forgive me.

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I'm amazed. Guess what? It's man-made.

A really quick update. Busy busy busy. Assignments due in the following and it stretches out for about 3 weeks or so. So, I guess I won't have time for a super-duper long update. And and and, I have a field practicum supervision next week which makes me feel like puking every time I hear people talk about it. And and some of my classmates who had their supervision done got positive remarks from the supervisor. And when I think about myself being supervised, I always thought that I would screw up my lessons and the supervisor would mark me down (like duh) and fail me (dreaded).

Oh please please with a cherry on top let Wednesday be nice lovely day for me to do my supervision with ease and please with with with a..... some rainbow sprinkles on top that the child would listen to me.